Gnäll blogg - whining blog

Idag fick jag veta att lillkissen hade en knöl som måste tas bort. 4-5 tusen spänn. Plus de 800 som veterinären kostade. Fogden tog mina 14 tusen jag fick tebax från skatten. Såklart.  Sen så flippade pojkvännen ut. Fast det hänger inte ihop. De e väl ungefär allt. Plus lite samhällsanalys då.



Today My Sons little kittenz got diagnosed for a maybe cancer in her nipples. It breaks my heart.

A few days ago mine beloved totally left me in the most brutal way. He came back. And only to  kik me. HARD. To hurt me. Said I  cruched his balls by being jelous. Yah right.  And this from someone that question my clothings. Accusing me of showing cunt. Accusing me for flirting when am networking. Yes. Never did I let him down to take care of someone else - someone unknown - would not do  that. ANd am NOT teasing men with meself. I cannot help if they look. If they do. I don't care. They are of none interest to  me.
Jelousy.
ugh
When he kept whining. About his own  disbeleif in what he is. Then I finally slapped his face. HARD  as hell. Directly and said Stop  whining ffs. It 's just LIFE.
Think he wanted out.
Never stop a wanderer. It is a saying in Germany.  RAUS is another thing they love to  say.
It means "I love you" me think....

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Yeah-- me now. To Him. The BITCH that should FUCK OFF.
The Ghost turns into The  Bitch From Hell.
Thing is - never knew someone could fight that hard just by actions and words...
quite impressing....



Life consists of social fuked up rules. Your cunt is MINE. Your SEX is MINE.
Reason why people rape in wars. And the reason of jelousy.
Some fuked up shit based on Darwin.

I  believe life long marriages is based on something more important.
Something that goes beyond social fuked up rules.

Still we are programmed. By the social fuked up rules.

So we hurt for nothing...

Fattigfitta - Damn white trash waste of space

some days.. sucks

life goes to hell.. love goes to hell....

Still.. I have my Space where I breathe fresh air and feel relaxed.

well, me believes in me anyway. Life is hard sometimes, still... AM Alive...

I write books in another world.

AM always exploring. Trying new things. And make my analyzes.



Write books and poems and blogs and articles and try to do music reviews (which I sucks at btw) and have many cool friends who doesn't need me to be anything more then me.. some needs me to write about them... since am damn good at that... some enjoy reading me... Life isn't that bad....

And I dream of moving to Berlin.

If still got dreams, then am alive.... I guess... if there still is stuff that inspires me.. this must be sign of life.

One day when am not unemployed and watch by every action from the unemployement insurance company that forbids me to do ANYTHING creative, but my blogs.. I will publish some more of my poems and release my book Spider.. as well as the Graveyard book... until then I create them allowed ways....

I don't know how it is in other countries, but in this country am in right now... I can't work if am not employed. If I wish to still get some insurance money from the unemployment thing. Someone cannot just hire me and pay a bill.. they got to employ me.... this sucks....

Especially since most companies cannot afford to employe these days, they prefer to hire.... Yeah Life Rocks....