Yeah Right... - just det :/

so when thinks everything is ok, then when come home this damned weeping starts again.. no wonder life gets so fucked up in feelings and emotions turns into being so overdimensioned when one doesnt eat properly and the pound shop told me my gold was american double so its getting interesting to get to work this month since no travel money and work in the country side Life under the level is so getting deep in meaning To have to back off from promised land felt feeling is so hard, especially when it touches life, love, future and everything same time when life crashes it surely so do in a very thouroughly way well we got to reach the bottom to see whats there I must find a way to stop this feeling of being outside myself body is still reacting with shock sympthoms but why I KNEW all the time my head is as if had no oxygen for while and these tears these tears for what for what for what well not sure if it changes anything for me still these reactions scare me will try to eat and see if its getting different am not made of panzar got feelings and emotions and was always honest no game SHOULD done games maybe followed instinct but for what I dont do games it either is or it isnt BACKLASH seeing things from the other end of the rope mirrors shattered glass of mirrors everywhere right now Time to shape up pull myself together raise from this reach my inner IZ she seems so sad though and bit disappointed to even be that no need to be things are what they are life is life love is fucked always we already knew still this goes beyond everything still the feeling is as this is just ordinary shit predestinated selfdestruction as hopes woken are nothing new Time will tell... IT FUCKS ME UP I DESTROYED MY ANT STORY of the Divine contra Human for what... did I do that sacrifices emphatie sucks there is none for me in the end and why should it be every man is responsible for what we allow If dont want to make a sacrifice then dont simple as this when you believe you are safe you are not thats for sure well, blurbing shit thought things are what them are as always what you cannot be without keep this what you dont need just skip it